Posted byjcroxas at 10:51 AM on October 16, 2008 .
Photos by Ate Mitch Bugante
Thank you, Ate!
Masaya lang ako kasi fullmoon! i mean full moons kasi this is my lucky day kasi day/night ng mga MOONS ko! i'm happy kasi Mark was able to remind me and he texted me,
"Tingnan mo ang moon ngayon. bilog na bilog."
i'm happy din kasi ate mitch was able to take a picture of the moon kasi pangit resolution ng webcam ko sa laptop and many texted me na full moon nga kasi alam nilang i love my moon and stars!
-the rest is still unwritten-
i feel so: HAPPT TALAGA ULIT! :)
Posted byjcroxas at 10:33 AM on October 16, 2008 .
Just lately, i was able to bond with my moon.
it started last saturday when we decided to go to mass together. And by the way, masaya din pala ako kasi last saturday, [kwento ko muna ito], halos kumpleto ang MoonsStars ko... nandon kami sa Lrc building [naglalaro, projects, kwentuhan and etc]. then we decided to go to McDonald's to have our dinner. Nilibre ko si Mark and we ordered fillet and some french fries for everyone. Plus Coke Float! then after that, [weird talga] kasi nilagay namin sa isang plate at sa baso lahat ng ICE then may sinulat kasmi sa Tissue...
"Andaming ice! ano to IceCapades? anyway thank you McDo for the "ICE!"" hahah
ewan na lang at bakit namin nagawa yun! kakainis kasi! andami daming ice tapos konti lang ang coke! ay ewan na lang talaga!
then pumunta na kami sa Brebeuf Gym [nw with Mark and Lance na lang since umuwi na si Meryl and Ganni].
then nanoood ng concert and nag break and nag magic sila. ako naman, nag net. and nung pabalik na kami sa Brebeuf Gym, hindi ko i nof ang LapTop ko kasi nagbabakasakali akong may signal dun ang Net. then nagkataon na meron. and i was a little bit sad kasi wala si Greg sa concert. but God is really with us kasi may naisip ako. since OL si Greggi, i turned on my camera and pi ni m ko siya to accept my invitation sa webcam then nakikita na niya ang concert but walang sound. so i called him sa phone para naman may sound/music ang napapanood niyang concert sa webcam! haha... sumaya si Greg dahil dun kasi kahit papaano, napanood niya ang concert kahit na dalawang songs na lang! hahah [hope greggi will be able to read this!]
then after ng concert, naglaro pa kami nina mark ng Bridge sa Y8.com and inabot kami ng hanggang 9.30 pm. but nung umuwi na talaga kami, inassure namin sched namin for sunday and mag sisimba nga kami.
so the next day, nagkita kami sa AdZU Chapel. we're actually wearing stripes! astig... sayang wala si Greggi. well anyway, the mass is very unussual. masaya ang ambiance kasi may nakit kaming bata na pag ka CUTE! as in CUTE talaga. nagustuhan namin ang mata ng bata. siguro 2 - 3 years old pa lang yung bata. haaay... ang cute talaga ng bata! hahah... then ang maganda is [since fiesta pilar], we dipped the holy hosts sa wine and we had the chance na makita ang bata na sobrang lapit lang sa amin. shid! ang sarap kurutin. gusto talaga naming kurutin ni Mark ang bata! hahaha. kawawang bata. after the mass, we went sa american video para hanapin ang I Am Some na movie and meron din naman. but i will likely borrow it some other time na lang. haha... sabi niya maganda daw talaga kasi yun! then umuwi na siya after niya ako ihatid sa may bhaus ko and while waiting sa jeep.
and i was really happy pa talaga kasi for the whole day, text ng text si Jake about his problems about sa essays niya for the ACCESS Program. and nung hapon, nag text siya and sinabi niya:
"May essay ka na about sa Peace?"
I replied, "Yes! Bakit man?"
He replied, "Wala lang. Para kasing malaki talaga ang problema ni Jake jan. Ü"
I'm gald kasi he's been supporting me sa mga plans ko. [thanks God! Thnaks Mark!]
then kinabukasan, we met sa chapel kasi mag aaral kami and since di ko makontak si Greg, wala pa rin siya. hanggang class and lucnh. but busy that time si greg and ako naman, still hunting for persons para sa recommendation letter ko for the ACCESS PRogram. while nag nenet lang din si Mark. hanggang gumabi na wala parin akong mahanap na tao. then i was able to chat with ate mitch, [ate ni mark]. then may inagusapan kami na very mahalaga. well i must not tell it here. kasi it's a private conversation. and pinadalhan niya kami ng handouts for English and at the same time, i nedit niya ang essays ko! haha.. [thank you ate mitch!]
then kinabukasan, nag aral ulit kami ni mark. then after that, nawalan na ako ng pag-asa for the access program. wala kasi talaga akong makita kasi halos busy ang lahat ng teachers namin! i cried sa stairs kasi wala kaming FFP. then Clavelyn saw me and damn hell! mas napaiyak ako kasi may dumamay sa akin! [emo talaga ako! ] hahah... then after that, pumasok ako sa roo with my eyes still red and wet and miniscall ko so MArk kasi akala ko nakita niya akong pumasok and i wanna go out. But nag miss call din siya and lumabas and hinahanap niya ako sa labas kasi he was going to the stairs. but tinawag ko siya and i told him that i'll quit na. But suddenly, sinabi niya,
"Jude! Ayun si Ma'am Minda! Paakyat na! Dali takbo!"
Shid! thank you talaga Mark! nakatulong ka talga and na solve na problem ko kahit na madalian ang pag gawa ng letter! i really owe this one to mark! thanks mark!
then later, sinabi niya sa akin na hindi talaga siya sure if si ma'am ba talaga ang nakita niya but he just told me na siya yun. haha funny talaga no! but tama siya! thank you MOON!
then i was able to complete my requirements! [thanks God! God Bless us all!]
thank you evryone!! )
-the rest is still unwritten-
i feel so: HAPPY TALAGA!
Posted byjcroxas at 01:28 AM on October 2, 2008 .
Last Thursday marked another significant evnt in my life. We were actually having our “Symbolic” something in our F.F.P. (first year formation program) Class. We were actually given small piece of papers wherein we will draw a hapy ace, sad face, a box, a triangle and a sun. I was actually having fun while drawing those figures and shapes. I was indeed ecstatic that time since it’s been a long time since I last drew my last drawing. Haha… funny and weird noh? Well back to the topic. Those shapes tha we drew actually means something:
Ø Happy Face- we will give this to the person to whom we wanted to be friends with him or her but we are shy to do that.
Ø Sad Face- we will give it to the person to whom we wanted to say our apologies for having done wrong things.
Ø Square- to whom we feel the so called “ENVY”.
Ø Sun- the person who brightens up our lives.
Ø Star- sa taong tinitingala namin.
Ø Triangle- sa taong gusto naming makasama panghabang-buhay.
I will tell you kung kani-kanino ko binigay ang mga symbols na ‘yon.
Ø Happy face- ALYSSA VILLA-VALDEZ
o Pano naman kasi, although friends na talga kami but still I wanted myself to have a very deep relationship with her.
Ø Sad Face- ALYSSA VILLA-
o Kasi all I thought galit siya sa akin.
Ø Square and Triangle- ATE ABC
o Not naman talaga envy na as in envy ang na feefeel ko. But ‘yung something na meron kasi siyang characteristics na gusto mko talagang makuha like ‘yung pagiging open niya and pagiging matapang and that;s why tinitingala ko rin siya.
And the best part of that particular event:
Triangle--- actually 2 persons lang talaga ang nasa isip ko that time. Of course my “MOONS”. But I don’t know kung pa’no ko sasabihin nor ibibgay. I was thinking na hatiin but… ewan ko ba talaga. But then everything changed when Mark interrupted 9well not actually interrupted for he gave me another reason to smile because another problem was solved nanaman.) He gave me his “TRIANGLE” and told me to give mine to Greggi and he will get Greggi’s Triangle. Then suddenly, I saw Greggi na hinahati niya ang kanyang Pizza-like like triangle. He gave Mark the other half and he gave to me the other one. So what Mark and I did was did what Greggi just did. And I felt happy. VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY HAPPY because I felt that friendship is really in us and I will always treasure it. Why did I say that? Because those words came from Mark’s mouth and I know from his heart also. And what Greggi did was so amazing that he really wanted us to have his triangle. So when the time came that we were about to give our “SUN”, I immediately cut it to half and gave it to my “MOONS.”
Then I am very happy.
Thank you, my dear GOD!
Thank you, my MOONS.
-The Rest is Still Unwritten-
Posted byjcroxas at 05:52 PM on September 26, 2008 .
Well, medyo matagal tagal na din akong 'di nakakapag-update ng blog ko. but what made me decide to update again is because of my wonderul experience yesterday.
Well, my experience yesterday was indeed majestic and brilliant because, i was able to reunite with my "Mystery Star" again. Well, hindi 'to alam ng ibang MoonsStars because it just happened yesterday and the day before yesterday. I was not able to open the situation to them because i believed that i can just handle it. and i did it! [Thanks, oh God!]
Ano ba talaga ang nangyari? Well, it's just because of my most annoying negative attitude, "ANNOYANCE!"... well, i don't really like it. but this is me. i was really obliterated whenever i am annoyed and well, to tell you frankly, sometimes it really gives me time to think, which is my usual hobby... THINKING DEEPLY is one of my wonderful hobby and sorta attitude.
Well, it really began when Jake's actually annoying me. It was kinda hurtful on my part because, as you all know, my "PRIDE" is so high that sometimes, i can't control it.
I was really annoyed whenever he talks, especially when he is correcting me. because, for me, it sounds really really FRANK. but, what happened was that, i was able to cope up with my problem because i was able to see my faults.
Me and Greggi was already sitting in the "La Purisima" Stone [in front of McDonald's], waiting for the P.U.J. when he finally arrived from school. then when Greggi had already rode the Jeepney, i immeadiately thought of everything that was happened. those hurtful times... wait. i was too exxageratng things up and i don't really want to mess those things. well, as you can also feel, i was really obliterated.
i texted Jake and with a heavy heart, told him about what happened. i don't want to keep grudge to my Moon and Stars. Diba?
Well at least, he was able to see my mistake as well as his mistakes. i felt really blessed for having him in my life because he is really helping Greggi and Mark and including myself, to become "Better".
-the rest is still unwritten-
Posted byjcroxas at 05:31 AM on September 13, 2008 .
I THE DAY!
Yesterday's was really beautiful! Well, at least, hindi lang ako ang nakapansin ng kagandahan ng araw kahapon. Even Greggi and Ganni was mentioning that yesterday was indeed... err... i mean... REMARKABLY BEAUTIFUL.
why did i say that my day was indeed remarkably beautiful yesterday?!?
let me narrate first everything that happened yesterday. Well, first, i started to prepare for school at 9 A.M. since we are really required to take the S.R.A. thing but it really gives me time to awaken my reading skills. It was actually fun though some people doesn't want to do it anymore. When i arrived in the school, i immediately went to the Carlos Dominguez Conference Hall [C.D.C.H.] wherein, i was able to hear again my favorite psalm played in the Piano. the lyrics goes like this:
"I will play for Him on my harp,
with my lute and ten-stringed lyre.
I will greet the Lord with my song;
I will sing the ways of the Lord"
my day became fantastic after hearing that. i was so blessed that i was able to hear it once again [since matagal ko ng hindi naririnig 'yun]. Then pumunta na ako sa Nursing Library for the S.R.A. Session. After reading 3 selections yesterday, we immediately went to the cafeteria to have our lunch then i went to LBP-Petite Barracks Branch. [kukunin ko kasi yung mga chocolates na padala ng ate ko! haha ]
after that, i went to the C.D.C.H. again where i continued reading the "Eleven Minutes" by Paulo Coelho [well it talks about the sacredness of sex in the context of LOVE] well it was kinda fun [since it has some Freudian Touches! haha! LOLs!]
then i went immediately to the Physics lab for our I.T. Class where i was able to see "SpongeBob" again. but i was happy to see Greggi and Mark there also. [At least i'm not alone.]. Then we are actually introduced to our future projects which includes programming and PHOTOSHOP! [Shid! Fow-Tow-Shoppe! kinilig ako ng marinig ko ';yun. Excited gat yo!:p]
afte our class, we went to McJer's para ipaphotocopy namin ang Math assignment. but when we are actually going back to school na, i was annoyed [once again] by SpongeBob since i was able to feel again the "Tulak-Tulak" thing.! ISH! i really hate that! [when someone wants to pass on my way, then making me tulak so that he can pass on the same direction i will be heading for.] ARGH! Well, I'm glad Jake's with me so at least, may nakausap ako.
Then we again went to the C.D.C.H. [with Greg and Jake-since umuwi na si SpongeBob and may M.T.G. Game si Mark]. Jake's actually doing something while me and Greggi was actually busy making/doing our Math Assignment. then we came to the point when Greggi opened my problem and what we actually did was we disected it. then luckily, Mark was coming over. I was really happy because both my MOONS are thetre. Then they let me talk first and this is what i told them:
my first point- i was afraid.
second point- i was poisoned by the environment that i was able to see SpongeBob's mistakes easily and clearly than his good works.
thirs point- i lack courage or should i say, i don't have yet the courage.
fourth point- i need more time
then, Greggi told me about the giant who actually eats humans for food.[alangan! hahaha] then one day, one man went to see the giant [even though he thinks that he doesn't have the courage, but still, he thought that this is for everyone';s sake and he must face it no matter what happens]. then as the man was moving closer to the giant, the giant was actually becoming smaller, and smaller and smaller and then come a time were the giant was actually just a few centimetetrs tall. Then, since the giant was too small, the man can now let himself kill the giant. but before he killed the giant, the giant first mentioned his name and his name was, "FEAR!". then after that, he then immediately killed the giant.
well, that story was indeed great. a simple yet very full of symbols and lessons. Greggi also stressed out that courage cannot be measured and that sometimes, we even think that we don't have courage. but we can really do something in order for us to feel courageous and that is to snap out fear in our lives!
then i asked Mark [since he is also one of my moons] to tell something about the situation. well at first, i don't think that Mark will not say anything because, human as he is, he doesn't like to be serious... err... i mean too serious at most times. but to my surprise, he spoke and told me that, "Diba nasabi mo na na-"Poison" ka? well it will depend sa'yo if you will drink the antidote para mawala ang poison sa'yo." I'm really happy that they were able to help me in my problem.
then after that, we part ways already and umuwi na sina Greg and Mark then andun lang kami ni Jake sa SMADZU Office. then luckily, Ganni was also there so i was able to share my happiness to him and at the same time, hewwas able to tell me a little bit of something-yet very meaningful- and at the same time [again] he was able to let me know about his plans and happiness as well.
we just sat in the N.C.B. Tunnel and we just talked about the solution to my problems. He was very happy because he had the chance to talk to me because, he was able to think critically [while talking] about the answer to their F.F.P. Assignment. [well at least, i was able to help him thru our simple conversation] then what surprised me again is when i was mentioning about the book i just read and about the lessons i'd learned. well i am happy also because, because of our talking, i was able to see the real message of the "The Valkyries" written by Paulo Coelho. I told him the I can really give my problems to the sky [which is too vast] and those problems will certainly become rain that will help me feel refreshed and happy and to become a better person. then when it was almost 7:30 [i think], we walked and he guided me on my way home and we said our goodbyes to one another when a jeepney stopped in front of my boarding house.
this day was indeed remarkable!
-the rest is still unwritten-
Posted byjcroxas at 01:14 AM on September 9, 2008 .
After reading that comment, my heart leaped with joy and my eyes became floody [with tears of course]. well it's just that i felt really blessed to have such wonderful frriends. i mean it's very rare to meet some truly wonderful and amazing friends. i'm so lucky to have Greg and Mark and Bergz and Ganni and Ralph and the I.F. after reading thae comment, i went immediately to the Cathedral's aAdoration Chapel so that i can meditate on the things needed to be meditated. Or in other words, i wanted to contemplate on my existence so that i will know on to what i am made for- to whom and to every possible thing. i wanted to make things clear and accordingly to God's will. well, again, i would say, that time flies so fast. i don't know what keeps me on saying those words. when i am still in the Adoration Chapel, i prayed first and then i updated B.N... while i'm doing that, i was very happy because, once again, i was able to review and to recall my happy memories last week. it was kinda fun. the Singing Thing Greggi and me used to do in the N.C.B. Tunnel while waiting for Ganni to end his conversations with Vadyc and Hazel, the Sprint thing, the C.M.A. night with Ganni and the tissue paper from Mr., DOnuts in which we wrote our personal messages (to ganni and me) and many more.
I was really happy that i was able to remeber those things though. because for one (1) whole week, i was not able to update B.N. well God really works in mysterious ways. I guess he really wanted me to feel happy. [Well if that's the case, i'm happy now my God! ]
Then i resumed my session with BN. I'm glad BN's with me when my Moons and Stars are not on my side [physically--because i know that they are always in my "HEART" no matter what.)
Well, till here!
-the rest is still unwritten-
i feel so: happy
Posted byjcroxas at 09:36 AM on September 8, 2008 .
This is an excerpt (?) form Greggi's recent post:
"so today i realized a few things, lemme start off by what Jude texted me earlier this day. in the message: "learn to forgive and correct one another" i was wowed since what i was planning to tell Jude [since Lorenz distracted our conversation yesterday] was already said, as if God made a was that Jude will get what i was trying to tell him yesterday. so in summary: i realized that God works and helps us through intervening not our selves, but to our every happening, for example, i was trying to tell something to my friend, and i wasnt able to, so he told my friend in a different way that same idea i was trying to deliver."
Today, i felt ashamend of myself. I was able to feel that it is the end of my world already. things happened so fast today as if i was not able to make every moment significant. but that wasn't true. for today i was able to realize many things.
let me first narrate everything. We were in the GS Campus Ministry Office, doing some service there [well at least it was a BANG on my part! and i love counting envelopes for the missiion. 
] i was so happy doing some fun stuffs with Mark, Greggi, Meryl and Ralph/ it was cool that i can't explain the coolness! hahaha... LOLs! Well anyway, let me continue.
but all beginnings have its own endings. my happiness was gone in an instant when... when...
when... my secrets have been revealed. I wasn't expecting it to happen! really! but God really works in mysterious ways just to help me cope up with my problem. well, Greggi had mentioned everyhting [i guess] to Mark about my deep , i meean very deep anger [Silent Anger to be specific] towards CODENAME SPONGEBOB. After letting everyhting been explained to Mark, [well i ghuess nbot everything], i started to feel shame within myself. shmae in the sense that, "WALA NA AKONG MUKHANG MAIHAHARAP KINA MARK AND GREGGI!" but i am wrong. for they, my MOONS, my REAL FRIENDS, let me know that they will not leave mme and that they will always guide me. such a wonderful blessing! i was really hushed in very much awe! after being silent for a long time, they will always let me feel the happiness that they wanted me to feel, by giving me some friendfly punches and spnaking my back and AB. well it was cool. but i was earning grudge with in myself. [sorry greg and mark]. not towards them, but within my whole self. nahihiya ako sa kanila. everything can't be explained accordingly to my principles. well i guess., this is one of the principles i have. some bad principles. i know human principles meant to be good and helpful, but one can't deny the fact that everyhing has its reciprocal[hope you're getting my point]. everyhting became strange after that particular moment of the day.
well, why did i posted Greggi's entry here? because i am very touched by what he did. he really cares for me. thanks Greg. plus mark also told me to be strong. even if he doesn't said it verbally, but i can feel it!
i can't explain my feelings. but i know, Greggi and Mark, and with my other Friends, with the HELP OF GOD, they will always help me whenever i am down. [i hiope so] BUt i know they will.
-the rest is still unwritten-
Posted byjcroxas at 08:15 AM on September 4, 2008 .
Haha… this is the assignment I made for our English 111
subject. It is a descriptive paragraph [I hope it is] where I described the
times when I’m alone [exaggeratedly]. Haha. … it is entitled, “When I’m
Alone”. This is it! This is really is it!
When I’m alone, life is so hard to explain sometimes. In the midst of the twilight night, tears run from my eyes, as if I’m a child unconsciously playing the strings attached to my wounded heart that once again been tugged-causing it to bleed profusely-inside my whole weakening body.
Imagine the environment I have when I’m alone- I’m feeling the breeze of dull occurrence which makes me (I think) a zombie that turns lifefull smiles to lifeless frowns. Within the darkness, I’m searching for light, as if I’m surrounded by thousands of Dementors and my Patronus is gone. But it’s futile, for my light had set in the west and never tried to shine in the east again. I always feel that abandonment is seizing me when I’m alone, even less fortunate than an abandoned dog, for it can still find its way back home. I heard everyone saying that, “Life is not a waste. And the only time that is being wasted is the time when we feel that we are alone.’ But what else can I do? This is me. They can never change me overnight like what they can do to stain the pure heart of a woman. Emptiness is beside me. And now, I’m all alone.
i feel so: Emotional...hahaha...LOLs! :P
Posted byjcroxas at 01:16 AM on September 2, 2008 .
Sniff- I'm so happy
. well last saturday, Greggi and Ganni had their advance birthday celebration and huwaw! ako lang ang bagong friend nila dun. [the rest are high schoo, friends]. i really thought na ba ka maOP ako but everything changed when i saw some familiar faces. i'm happy din na hindi ako pinapabayaan ng mga birthday celebrators and nina Bergz, Pluto and some new friends.
well everything went good. I played chess with Meryl and we even ended up playing the so called "End Game". Ralph was saying that i'm already improving. hehehe... [Thank You, Oh God!]. But Greggi would always say, "Nah! Poisoned na mind mo! haha.". Well at least, Greg's happy to see me happy! [Thanks Greg!
]
We ate our Dinner and had fun talking with each other then later went outside to talk and to have a happy moments with each other in the cold, happy night. As we had our conversation, Meryl and Ralph asked the IF na isali nila ako. I'm so happy! So So HAPPY!!! Yeah! I've made another friendship
! A friendship that is not an ordinary friendship because all of them are so special to me. i'm so really blessed to be invited in the party because i think God wants me to be a part of something that can be considered as one of the Greatest BLESSING in my life. [thank You, dear God!]
even na hindi ko pa kilala ang lahat and i'm not yet an official member of IF, i'm happy pa din kasi Meryl opened something to me. I'm really touched by those words that whenever i read that text message, i always feel that i'm a a messenger sent from heaven to bring peace and serenity in the group. isn't that great? "IT IT" great [as Greg and me use to say... haha...] here are the members of IF:
That's all!
THANK YOU IF!
-the rest is still unwritten-
i feel so: happy
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